I joined a woman's breast cancer support group and every Monday myself and six other women get together to discuss our lives and how cancer has affected it. I absolutely love this group and feel that it has helped me so far tremendously.
The one thing that we discussed is the fear of recurrence. Every ache, pain and stiffness in your body leads to your mind playing tricks on you and you cant escape the thought "oh no, what if its cancer?"
Its really a mental disorder that goes something like this...
Headache = brain cancer
bones hurting = bone cancer
nausea = stomach cancer
walking through a cloud of smoke = lung cancer.
Every day = CANCER, CANCER, CANCER
And there seems to be no where to run to escape these words, feelings and fears....I guess that all comes with time.
Currently and personally I am having the BIGGEST problem with my backside. It feels as if my muscles from my lower back to under my butt are so stiff I have trouble walking. Its like there is something constantly pushing on my bones and the feeling is killing me.
I visited the chiropractor today but it didn't seem to help much other than the fact that she did remind me it will take a good year for my body to be "normal" again and that there are post-chemo symptoms.
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